The supremely incontestable allure of recognition irreversibly suspends and irreparably damages creative progression of any kind.

Knowledge of some kind increases the capacity to endure struggle...

nonconformity...or conformity in disguise!

Someday I would love to join a nonconformist gathering...to see one nonconformist conforming to another.

I want to see if there too they remain as much unbending in actions and interactions...or tacitly seek fitting conformity from fellowmen just by dropping the 'label' in the comfort of a kindred company? 

Does a nonconformist nonconform only in conformists' presence?

Befriending a nonconformist is the quickest way to be a nonconformist. There exist the perpetual 'nonconformists'...and there are those who just nonconform occasionally - as a welcome reprieve from the grind of conforming. A nonconformist, ideally, needs an establishment or thought...an object to espouse or expunge. Some nonconform since birth and some to requite. And some nonconform without knowing what it's all about. And some gloriously do so upon imagining the infallible prospect of infinite popularity inherent in a nonconformist label. Touché!

They all fail to see nonconformity as a situational and social weapon to be used with caution and care.

Conformity is the highest kind of nonconformity. When deep within you know the distinction yet do not distinguish. When all that you carry is your awareness and not the carrier...without yielding to any normative chore known to man.

managing Past...

Rather fatefully my like and dislike grew happily together. It was always like watching the order and chaos coexist and behave of their own accord. 

These cognitive patterns are largely observed when I look around. [I refrain from using 'looking back' rather responsibly and conveniently just to drive home that point. 'Looking back' turns the act so very unidirectional, predictable, corny.] And most of the 'resentful' dialogues between my nonexistent past and ubiquitous present are initiated by the past. Understandably, may not be agreeably though, as past is always sacred, raring to dispute present's validity. The wanton 'present' doesn't oblige, justly. It has only moments. It is experiential...unlike past.

Why do I need to wait for another 40 years to face myself? Why cant I die everyday to be born again? Why don't we revisit our conclusions and keep on concluding untiringly...inconclusively?

'stay' and 'don't leave'...

Do they mean the same? Does 'Stay' purport exactly what 'don't leave' does? 

No. 

They do not say the same. Just because they do not come from the same being. Though both share the same vent, they spring from different states harbored within. The dominant state dictates the wording often risking the betrayal of the ruling mood. Asking to 'stay' springs from plain knowledge of one's presence as opposed to 'don't leave' stemming from a fear of loss. 

Accept the volatility with an unwavering knowledge of the presence. Let the knowledge take over the fear. Or let fear yield to knowledge. The stench of fear is usually nor perceived when the aroma of knowledge reigns.

Say 'stay'...be in celebration and not in denial!

To add to all that has been said over the ages...we never learn anything from great stories. They just generously afford a turf where we meet new people resplendent with their vulnerabilities and strengths...may not be in that order. Great stories let us connect to ourselves through others and feel the overwhelming ambivalence we endure.